Methodology of 1.3 kg of grey. The frantic me.

Bare with me. Do Not read if you cannot accept sudden mood swings. It is the first rain of the year and I sit over the window sill while I write this. The night sky is illuminated- sparks bursting and threads of lightening slithering over the night sky. It has almost stopped raining and the much awaited breeze drifts around me. It's refreshing. Its a relief after tolerating the scorching heat that surrounds you throughout the day. The lightening seems to have pierced my heart in a way that makes me let out all the pain. I feel lighter. I feel nostalgic. As I type, it has stopped to pour. And I can hear the sky gurgling. I take deep breaths. The petrichor is working it's magic somehow and I am here, falling prey to it willingly. Bittersweet moments flash by as I close my eyes and let the wind take control over me. I have no control over my thoughts, my speech and my actions. I am letting it all flow in the way they want to. This might be my choice now, but 3 hours later, it...

It was the last day of my examination at college. Every one was ready to write the paper as soon as they could, and get out of the place. They had plans. Getting out with friends, eating, roaming around. Some people had to hurry home; the family had booked tickets for their vacation. Some had to go home and follow their usual routine. I had plans too. One which was made two weeks in advance. It was the first time I was going to travel by train alone.  It was a big deal, as in India, travelling by train is not considered safe for girls. Many people don't prefer it, as it is hectic, tiring, and chaotic, full of hustle, and yeah, sweat and dirt. But for most people, it is a major form of transportation, to cover a large distance by cheap means, almost everyday. So! Departure: Thane, Maharashtra, India Arrival: Khopoli, Maharashtra, India 3:55 pm I finished writing the paper, and strode out of the examination hall, heading for home. It was 37 degrees outside, and I had m...

Amidst the woods I call out Fallen flower petals around Your name engraved in the trees far too old Your spirit all about. Like petals of spring you were Warm air underneath In the whispers of your calling I Grieve to find relief. Heart much cold And body too numb In the woods that surround me I am nothing but stone. Givers take it all they say Hope you gave and sorrow you took Clench me by this hand of yours Take away this piece of sorrow with you. Your absence has made a mark Why not now you could be close I exist when you don't But live when you do. And every flower that blooms today Shall shed a petal in the name of you You should be here by now, where are you? The petals have fallen down.

It seems very obvious and so it is, and is actually not something to think about in a different way, that worry and fear are two different things. The one thing common in them is that both the words refer to something not very happy and demanding. Worry - feel or cause to feel anxious or troubled about actual or potential problems. Fear -  unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm. O r, to be afraid of. That's how google defines the two words. If you ask me, how would i define the two words... i'll be like... umm... lemme think... And the best i can come up with is this- If i bite my finger nails, i am worried or anxious. And if my heart is pounding, and i can hear it even in the most noisy surrounding, then fear has taken over me. Mine is just a vague description, you now what it is... and you don't need to define it to yourself. You know you know it. :) Well, i already preached about worry, ( http://gauri114.blogspot.in/2016/10/one-less-pr...

Words and Actions can be persuasive. They have the power to manipulate you. So strong it can be that you turn into a puppet. One doesn't know how or what a person feels when under control of something, until he is in the persons shoe itself. All have their own perspectives. Every one has his/her own pair of shoes. However, you are the only person to determine and judge how it actually feels like to be in some one else's shoes. Because again, you have your own perspective. Ever thought how placing your feet into Satan's shoes would be like? Maybe he as been in ours. "Better to reign in Hell than serve in Heaven", is that it? Satan: Why not? I'm here on the ground with my nose in it since the whole thing began. I've nurtured every sensation man's been inspired to have. I cared about what he wanted and I never judged him. Why? Because I never rejected him. In spite of all his imperfections, I'm a fan of man! I'm a humanist. Maybe the ...

You have been anxious about something definitely, and haven't had your thoughts clear in a long time. And poof! Here come the words of wisdom. :b Every person faces problems once in a while. Even if a person stays happy and has nothing to worry about for a long time, don't envy them, they'll have something to deal with soon. Sure thing that problems do arise with too much happiness at times. :b Problems arise, and they come with solutions, just hidden somewhere within the problem itself. You just have to untangle all the bits and strands. Maths is a great subject. Some don't agree, but let me tell you- you got to learn how to solve problems in real life from it. If given a sum in maths, you know there are going to be some steps or formulas that you need to apply to solve it. In the same way, to solve a problem in your life, you'll have to think about the ways in which you can possibly deal with it. The ways can be most straight forward, as in just placing val...